Jesus answered and said unto them, Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this which is done to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; it shall be done.
We all have a storm we are waiting to pass over in our lives. We all have self-doubt, and we all find ourselves wondering if we will ever make it through the raging waters and the blistering winds that come toward us throughout our lives.
I have been living in my storm for the last year and have been wading through it since the day my husband left this earth. For awhile I found myself empty and without the energy to do anything more than just barely survive.
I have been wondering why my world has been constantly chaotic and why the stress and anxiety always seems to be banging upon the windows and doors of my life. I have been removing myself and allowing myself to be helpless and I was letting the excuse of missing a part of me, my partner, and my teammate in this world, be the reason, the okay to just let life exist around me, while I sat back and just let go.
It was not until just recently, while going through what has seemed like the eye of my storm, that I realized I am in control of this storm and until I take hold of it and learn to calm those viscous winds, reach down, and pull the plug on those treacherous waters, the storm will never pass.
I am learning that I am in control of this storm, and I must take the reins and bring it to an end. I must create the calm in my world, stand strong and restore the order, and in doing so I can relieve the stress and stop the chaos. I can’t just let go and let God for everything, I must be his disciple and do his works and in doing so, I will find that he will guide me to peace in my valley of life.
I can see today, that by taking control of the storm around me, I will find the storm within me coming to an end as well. I am already starting to feel a peace within myself for the first time in a very long while.
It is our job, when losing a part of ourselves, to learn that if we place our faith in the lord and in ourselves, we can make it through the storm and we must make it so, because we still deserve to live our lives with glory and happiness. We should remember and be assured that we have not lost a part of us, we have gained a presence that forever surrounds us and protects us and someday we will reconnect with that missing piece and be completely whole again.
You are never alone; they are never really gone, and they are counting on you to go on. Their love for you is immense and they want you to keep living, to be happy and to continue at your best because that is what allows them to be at peace with their passing. Just as it was when they were on this earth beside you, it still is. They want you to live and to love living.
I can see now that my job is not over and that there are many who are counting on me to live and to stand up and take hold of the reins. They need me to let them live their best life by following me as their guide. I must take life back and not sit there and just reside.
I will beat this storm and I will continue living. I will stand strong and carry on. I will lead by example, and I will be the warrior that the people in my life and I need me to be. I will move the mountain, drain the floods, calm the winds and bring back the Sunshine. I will bring my storm to an end.