There is a moment in everyone’s life when the tables seem to turn, and you find yourself adjusting your seat to start over at a new place setting. Everything seems out of order, and you feel so awkward trying to find your bearings and make everything work for you, but somehow you manage to make it happen and then suddenly everything seems to fall into sync and life starts to feel right again.
I never would have imagined at this time last year that I would have accomplished so much by this time. My heart was so broken, and I felt as if my life was completely destroyed. I wanted to give up on just about everything. So, at New Year’s last year my one and only resolution was for my children to remain healthy and safe as they were the only thing left keeping me standing.
Its funny how time really does heal you. I adamantly disagreed with this statement when so many had shared it with me as sentiment to my loss. Time does not change your heartache for the one you lost, but it definitely allows your mind and your body to heal from the suffering you felt, and it not only heals you, but it allows you to see a new direction in your life that you never imagined before.
Over this past year I have graduated nursing school with my bachelor’s degree, left my job and took time to write a book of which is now being published. I have learned so much about myself this year, I replaced an entire kitchen sink faucet, had a front porch re-stained, a garage floor leveled, a sump pump replaced, I mowed lawn, landscaped, learned how to run a snow blower, and I financed a new car. I flew on a plane all by myself for the first time and watched my boys achieve starts in their life careers. I am truly capable of doing all of the things my husband and I did together, all on my own. I restructured my place at the table and made it perfect for me and for my future. I am building my setting around the Lord.
I have learned after achieving my bachelor’s degree in nursing that this may no longer be the ideal career for me. I love helping people and nurturing others, but the world has changed, and the healthcare industry has too, and I am not so sure it is where I want to be anymore.
After learning just a few days ago that my book is going to be published, I realized that I am capable of writing well and I love it so much. I want to follow my joy in writing and use my writing to reach out to others and give them hope and comfort through all of their struggles. I want to speak and motivate.
So, with all of this in mind I have a few New Year dreams this year. I want to buy a house on the lake in the next couple of years, I want to own a red 67 Camaro convertible with a black rag top, I am ready to find a new job where I can save money and continue writing books and I am hopeful to receive a call with a job offer from a company I have been in contact with recently.
I believe I will stay in Wisconsin for at least the next 6 years unless something meaningful changes that. I still want my children to stay healthy and safe and I want them to find all of their dreams coming true.
I have a positive outlook for the New Year, and I have a new excitement for my future and what I think it may hold for me. I believe I have found who I am, and I am ready to build the life I dream of today.
I wish you all, all of God’s greatest blessings for this New Year and I continue to pray for a greater World for all of us. I cannot thank all of you enough for being a light in my life this last year and all of the love you have shown me and my family. I am so blessed to have incredible friends and family in my life.
Here’s to a new start and new beginnings. Here’s to a Year full of blessings, love, good health and hopes and dreams coming true. I wish all of this for me and for all of you!
Happy New Year and May God Bless you all