Sometimes the simplest answer is right in front of you, and it takes you a lifetime to see it. For me that answer is that I have worth in this world, I believe in myself, and I am absolutely satisfied with who I am. I will never be perfect until I am ok with the level of perfection that I am.
God didn’t create us as perfect human beings, he created us in his image, and it was up to each one of us to find our level of perfection with ourselves. Not one of us can claim that we are a perfect specimen of human being, but we can know that we are perfectly happy with who we are inside and out.
One of my favorite lines from the bible is Exodus 3:14 And God said unto Moses, I AM THAT I AM. I know that it is said in different contexts, but perhaps it is exactly what we all should be believing, we are who we are. This does not me that we do not need to strive to be better than we are, but that we are simply content with who we are.
I guess what I am saying is that all of my life I have been trying to live up to a certain image that has been programmed in my head by society. The thin, fit, hot female that I of course have yet to reach, lol.
I have never been completely happy with my physical appearance, and I have belittled my own self for what I am not. I keep attempting to reach that physically fit person, but it’s a lot of work.
What I do know about myself is that I am a good person, with a huge heart and I am always the first to tell someone else, you should love someone for who they are not just what they look like. You don’t fall in love with an appearance, you fall in love with a person and who they are inside. If you are with someone because of how they look, or the money they have, or the trinkets they give you then you are missing what true love really is.
The greatest love anyone can ever know is the moment when you learn to love yourself. The moment when you realize that in this life, the two most vital things you need are to believe in yourself and to believe in the Lord. After that everything else will just fall in line.
I found someone who loves me for who I am and no matter how fat or thin I might be. He loves me, because of who I am, and he knows that my love for him is genuine, true, and honest. He believes in me, and he stands with me and beside me in every choice I make. I love and believe in him, just the same.
Life is only as perfect as we believe it to be, and we are only as perfect as we believe ourselves to be. Not perfectly flawless, not without chaos or disappointments, but with everything that makes us happy, fulfilled, and perfectly content in this world and in ourselves.
I am finally seeing that I may not look physically perfect, but I am perfectly happy with who I am and to me that makes me feel absolutely beautiful.